I used to have a really strong idea of the person I wanted to be and it pushed me to carry on, to keep going to the gym, to keep eating well. I had a vision of how my day would evolve and worked hard to get that. I had even written a blog entry that was like a journal of my perfect day. I would say over the last year this image in my mind has faded and I don't put so much emphasis on it anymore... why I don't know? Because it is still important to me, but I have put other things higher up the list. The thing is the things that are higher up shouldn't really be there....I would prefer to eat a takeaway pizza than cook clean and healthy food on a Friday night, I would prefer to drink a bottle of wine with it rather than abstain and be healthier, I would prefer to sit on my ass than do just about anything... I think my role models have gone or at east aren't as vocal about their lives anymore..... the ladies on M&F Hers really used to inspire me.... Creative User Name, Indigo Bunting, Tuff Chick, Lizzy, Brodie, Chouka and everyone else who was regular on the boards over there, but lives move on and most of us are still in touch by facebook, but our discussions are less about the daily battles to become fit amazing women.... so now I am influenced more by the people around me...My hubby (very fit and ripped, but can and will eat what he wants), people at work (who don't get the fitness lifestyle), my family (who think it is sacriledge to not drink loads on a Saturday night) and my parents (they try to be fit and healthy, but are still learning. I am taking on their habits and beliefs and losing my habits and beliefs....
I need to pull this back in and re-focus....
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