So even though my blog address is 2012, this blog is going to restart and become my 2013 journal... I have cleared out the old posts ready for a fresh start.
As usual between Xmas and NY my thoughts have turned to planning, to achievements I want, to how I can make life better and make me better... Oh yes I am already suspecting a long list of resolutions ... Erm no I mean intentions for 2013!
So let me just have a moment.... It is Dec 28th 2013 where am I?
• happy to reach my goal weight and to have stayed there all year.
• happy that my thoughts are more about body sculpture rather than weight loss.
• healthy is a way of life, a habit.
• sticking to my budget and not overspending has meant debts have reduced and savings have increased and I am going into 2013 more financially stable than I have ever been.
• Xmas savings have meant that Matt's bonus is a bonus!
• house is clean as I have overcome my laziness and procrastination habits.
• all of these have given me peace, I am happier and more relaxed making me a better person and a better wife.
So bring on 2013... I am taking control of you this year!
Thursday, 27 December 2012
Friday, 7 September 2012
A perfect Saturday
She stretches and rolls over, Eddie the pup is by the door wanting release, food and relief! Her alarm starts to go off so she reaches under the pillow ow silences it and that it she's up and heading for the kitchen.
She feeds Eddie who immediately dives right in, he always hungry first thing in the morning! She heads back to the kitchen and reaches into her fridge to find her 1st bottle of water for the day. It feels so good to let the water hydrate her system,like pouring water on the parched ground she soaks it all up.
As she drinks she sits at the kitchen table on the laptop, journalling her thoughts and feelings, her plans for today, her review of yesterday... she's doing well and she knows it and this knowledge keeps here pushing through, keeps her momentum strong.
Thy gym is calling, she is lucky, she has a home gym so doesn't need to go anywhere but upstairs to get to it. She puts the dogs back in with a snoozing hubby and heads across the landing to change. She flicks a switch and the gym lights up, another switch and MTV is on silent, Ipod earphones in her ears and she is ready to go. Steady state fasted cardio on the treadmill today, she cranks the speed up and jogs to the beat pounding through her ears... She knows once she hits 10 mins, it feels easier as her body relaxes into the run, but now she sucks up the initial hard work to get there....She glances at the TV... Rhianna is dancing and looking fabulous adding more motivation to getting passed the 10 minute mark....That's it 10 mins, now she just as to enjoy the jog...
Another 35 mins later and she is cooling down, she is soaked in sweat for the effort, but the endorphins are running round her body like crazy, she feels great but tired...straight to the shower... this is the best feeling in the world, letting the warm water hit the already tingling skin from the workout.
That's it, her workout is done and dusted before her day has started... no worrying, no fretting, no trying to fit it in at a later date... thats is a tick in the box!!
After showering it's time for food... she is starving after her fasted cardio
She feeds Eddie who immediately dives right in, he always hungry first thing in the morning! She heads back to the kitchen and reaches into her fridge to find her 1st bottle of water for the day. It feels so good to let the water hydrate her system,like pouring water on the parched ground she soaks it all up.
As she drinks she sits at the kitchen table on the laptop, journalling her thoughts and feelings, her plans for today, her review of yesterday... she's doing well and she knows it and this knowledge keeps here pushing through, keeps her momentum strong.
Thy gym is calling, she is lucky, she has a home gym so doesn't need to go anywhere but upstairs to get to it. She puts the dogs back in with a snoozing hubby and heads across the landing to change. She flicks a switch and the gym lights up, another switch and MTV is on silent, Ipod earphones in her ears and she is ready to go. Steady state fasted cardio on the treadmill today, she cranks the speed up and jogs to the beat pounding through her ears... She knows once she hits 10 mins, it feels easier as her body relaxes into the run, but now she sucks up the initial hard work to get there....She glances at the TV... Rhianna is dancing and looking fabulous adding more motivation to getting passed the 10 minute mark....That's it 10 mins, now she just as to enjoy the jog...
Another 35 mins later and she is cooling down, she is soaked in sweat for the effort, but the endorphins are running round her body like crazy, she feels great but tired...straight to the shower... this is the best feeling in the world, letting the warm water hit the already tingling skin from the workout.
That's it, her workout is done and dusted before her day has started... no worrying, no fretting, no trying to fit it in at a later date... thats is a tick in the box!!
After showering it's time for food... she is starving after her fasted cardio
Sunday, 19 August 2012
19th August....
Was a pathetic day :(
We took Eddie to car boot, no bargains really and it wasn't a very big car boot.
My idea then to get McDonald's brekkie, so 1000 cals wasted there....it's okay protein and veg for every meal now to make up for it, at least that was the plan till we spent some time chilling and watching tv coz then the goodies came out... 2 bags of crisps and chocolate!!!
Had a smaller tea, but still way over calories for today and now exercise...WTG gayle!!!
We took Eddie to car boot, no bargains really and it wasn't a very big car boot.
My idea then to get McDonald's brekkie, so 1000 cals wasted there....it's okay protein and veg for every meal now to make up for it, at least that was the plan till we spent some time chilling and watching tv coz then the goodies came out... 2 bags of crisps and chocolate!!!
Had a smaller tea, but still way over calories for today and now exercise...WTG gayle!!!
Saturday, 18 August 2012
18 aug 2012
So yesterday was almost a typical Saturday that we will have for the rest of our lives, the Saturday our house was made for... Well that we chose it for!!!
Mat wasnt working so we had nice brekkie, pottered around house and ran some errands before playing golf, after golf we sat in decking in the sunshine with a beer before showering and having tea. We stayed on decking until bedtime!!
It felt great... Now all we need is to add a gym visit to the day and it would be perfect!!!!
Mat wasnt working so we had nice brekkie, pottered around house and ran some errands before playing golf, after golf we sat in decking in the sunshine with a beer before showering and having tea. We stayed on decking until bedtime!!
It felt great... Now all we need is to add a gym visit to the day and it would be perfect!!!!
Friday, 17 August 2012
Bath time blessings
Sat in my bath right now. Everything is quiet and I have a moment to reflect.
This is when I count my blessings, when I am able to think how luck I am to have what I have: this amazing house with its jacuzzi bath, my gorgeous hubby who works so hard, my amazing dogs who make me smile so much and all the next level of family out there who are always there and always on hand
& to have been where I have been: Dubai, Maldives, Thailand, Malaysia, Cuba, Mexico, it's time to cling to the memories will we get some money built up in the bank!
It's my time, time to be revived. I already feel stronger and more positive!! I can do this, I can take hold of my life by the short and curlys and make it extra-ordinary!!!
xx
This is when I count my blessings, when I am able to think how luck I am to have what I have: this amazing house with its jacuzzi bath, my gorgeous hubby who works so hard, my amazing dogs who make me smile so much and all the next level of family out there who are always there and always on hand
& to have been where I have been: Dubai, Maldives, Thailand, Malaysia, Cuba, Mexico, it's time to cling to the memories will we get some money built up in the bank!
It's my time, time to be revived. I already feel stronger and more positive!! I can do this, I can take hold of my life by the short and curlys and make it extra-ordinary!!!
xx
Ffffriday!!!
I keep coming on here and saying today is the beginning, my new life, my chance to start again. Cut to a month later and I write the same post!
Is something stopping me? What is holding me back? I feel like I am not in control of my life, like I am floating around being pushed from pillar to post. This is because I have no direction, no goals! What am I aiming for in life? Where do I wanna be in a week, a month, a year? If I don't get to grips with this where will I be in a year? Logging the same post every month??
x
Is something stopping me? What is holding me back? I feel like I am not in control of my life, like I am floating around being pushed from pillar to post. This is because I have no direction, no goals! What am I aiming for in life? Where do I wanna be in a week, a month, a year? If I don't get to grips with this where will I be in a year? Logging the same post every month??
x
Sunday, 8 July 2012
So much for this journal being called a DAY in my life, I maybe seem to log on only once per month!!!
Oh well.... My laptop is all linked up to the broadband again so I should be getting better at that now...
I am finding a need to blog at the moment.. life isn't going how I want it to and blogging gives me a little time to think it all through. I am frustrated at myself as I know I only have one person to blame for not being how I want to be.
As this morning I want to get back into the gym I feel that I need to fous my attention there this morning. I have just weighed in at 162.2lbs & 31.2% Body fat, somehow since I hit 162 my weight never goes any further even though I am sure I am eating more calories than I should!! I guess that's something to be thankful for right there!!
However I am not thankful that I can't wear 80% of clothes in my wardrobe, nor am I thankful that I feel fat and frumpy in the ones I can wear... I wanna feel good and look good again.
I am also worried that I have symptoms of depression that I need to get rid of... I don't mean just feeling a bit down I mean everything... I am low, I am fatigued, I have no concentration or focus,
With all the good in my life I find it difficult to believe I can feel so low...Anyway I need this to stop, there are possible life changes coming in about 5 weeks time, I need these feelings under control by then especially the concentration and attention to detail and everywhere I look it shows working out as being something you need to do to get the good feelings going again!!
Anyway, that's it I'm caffeinated so time to hit the gym...
Oh well.... My laptop is all linked up to the broadband again so I should be getting better at that now...
I am finding a need to blog at the moment.. life isn't going how I want it to and blogging gives me a little time to think it all through. I am frustrated at myself as I know I only have one person to blame for not being how I want to be.
As this morning I want to get back into the gym I feel that I need to fous my attention there this morning. I have just weighed in at 162.2lbs & 31.2% Body fat, somehow since I hit 162 my weight never goes any further even though I am sure I am eating more calories than I should!! I guess that's something to be thankful for right there!!
However I am not thankful that I can't wear 80% of clothes in my wardrobe, nor am I thankful that I feel fat and frumpy in the ones I can wear... I wanna feel good and look good again.
I am also worried that I have symptoms of depression that I need to get rid of... I don't mean just feeling a bit down I mean everything... I am low, I am fatigued, I have no concentration or focus,
With all the good in my life I find it difficult to believe I can feel so low...Anyway I need this to stop, there are possible life changes coming in about 5 weeks time, I need these feelings under control by then especially the concentration and attention to detail and everywhere I look it shows working out as being something you need to do to get the good feelings going again!!
Anyway, that's it I'm caffeinated so time to hit the gym...
Wednesday, 20 June 2012
Long time, no post!!!
So it's been a while..,
Ive been in new house for a month and am loving it!! I have been busy settling in and downstairs feels like home... Upstairs not so much yet. We are still living out of boxes until the wardrobes turn up... Next week hopefully!!!
Eddie is settling down and getting into a routine of becoming a good puppy. He has occasional accidents and occasional naughtiness but in general he is a joy. Skye is living being here apart from not having the run of the house!! She loves running in the fields out back!!
So everything is going well... Except my transformation... The gym is set up, but I'm not making it in there.. Yet!!!
I am getting fed up about it and am ready for this to change!!
Ive been in new house for a month and am loving it!! I have been busy settling in and downstairs feels like home... Upstairs not so much yet. We are still living out of boxes until the wardrobes turn up... Next week hopefully!!!
Eddie is settling down and getting into a routine of becoming a good puppy. He has occasional accidents and occasional naughtiness but in general he is a joy. Skye is living being here apart from not having the run of the house!! She loves running in the fields out back!!
So everything is going well... Except my transformation... The gym is set up, but I'm not making it in there.. Yet!!!
I am getting fed up about it and am ready for this to change!!
Tuesday, 1 May 2012
Dream List for next 12 weeks
So between now and 25th July here is a bucket list of things I want to achieve (in no particular order - just brainstorming)
- Move house and be settled into a good daily routine @ 1108 Leeds Rd
- Puppy settled and sleeping through the night
- Lose 12lbs of body fat, by losing 1.5 lbs per week. From 161lbs to
- To have changed my mindset from instant satisfaction to long term by choosing the good things (foods & workouts) not the bad things (comfort food & beer)
- Be able to fit into Lindeburg golf pants
- To be managing my life well and keeping my house looking great
- To be looking after my skin - drinking water, cleansing & moisturising - full works
- To have reduceed my coffe intake and increased my water intake
- To enjoy coffee, cakes, chocolate etc as a treat that I look forward to not a part of my daily diet
- To be in the habit of prepping my food.
- 10 minute mile.. I would like to see how long I take to run 1 mile on treadmill at moment. If more than 10 mins then I want to come in under 10 mins. If already less than 10 mins I need a speedier time goal
- Create a 30 mins Spin playlist - hills, sprints etc and complete this 3 times a week
- I want to reduce my body fat % to less than 25
Sunday, 22 April 2012
Where was I again...
Since coming home from Malaysia my life has been chaotic and I haven't really got myself on track, then to make things worse we bought Eddie and life became even more chaotic. I know we will be moving within the next month and feel like life is on hold until then because I know I will have a new life very soon.
The week with Eddie has been a tough one... for all the 30mins of joy and fun he gives we have another of stress and frustration. He has now decided he doesn't like using the garden to toilet and much prefers the carpets and doggie towels that we have on the floor! He's an obstinate little beggar!! But he has got used to going in his cage during the day - this makes for a mad 30 mins when he gets out though...:-) He is getting along with Skye really well, mind you she tells him when she needs to! At the moment if I was to set my alarm for toilet breaks (which I haven't been doing - but that may change tomorrow) then I would say he needs to get up at 11.30pm then 4am. I am figuring that if I do this and then start to delay the alarms by a couple of mins here and there that he will get more used to getting through the night. Don't get me wrong - he is a joy!
I am getting more and more frustrated with the health and fitness part of my life... when did I forget all of my goals and aims for my life. I am currently weighing in at 161lbs which is 25 to 30lbs over where I want to be. Now I am not saying that I am not pissed off about this - I am, but I am more pissed off that I have let the goals for my lifestyle slip.. I wanted the life of fitness, of health, of dedication, discipline, of being better than all the other people in the world who look in the bottom of a wine glass, beer glass, pasta dish or McDonalds wrapper for the answer... and yet after years of kinda pitying the types of people I have become like them... maybe not completely but comfort food and wine is an everyday occurrence for me rather than a treat on weekends. Working out is now something I do if I can be bothered not something I do religiously everyday. And guess what.. I feel like crap! I am not sleeping well or sleeping too well (and not being able to get up), my stomach churns constantly from the lack of any kind of good stuff going in, my skin is dry and dull probably due to the lack of hydration.
The winds of change are blowing around me again... watching a few clips of Ali Vincents Live big show and watching the London Marathon have kinda started my mind moving again. I feel like I am powering up after a deep sleep to the knowledge that I still want those things. I have the tools, I know how to get there, I just need to start taking the right steps now..
The week with Eddie has been a tough one... for all the 30mins of joy and fun he gives we have another of stress and frustration. He has now decided he doesn't like using the garden to toilet and much prefers the carpets and doggie towels that we have on the floor! He's an obstinate little beggar!! But he has got used to going in his cage during the day - this makes for a mad 30 mins when he gets out though...:-) He is getting along with Skye really well, mind you she tells him when she needs to! At the moment if I was to set my alarm for toilet breaks (which I haven't been doing - but that may change tomorrow) then I would say he needs to get up at 11.30pm then 4am. I am figuring that if I do this and then start to delay the alarms by a couple of mins here and there that he will get more used to getting through the night. Don't get me wrong - he is a joy!
I am getting more and more frustrated with the health and fitness part of my life... when did I forget all of my goals and aims for my life. I am currently weighing in at 161lbs which is 25 to 30lbs over where I want to be. Now I am not saying that I am not pissed off about this - I am, but I am more pissed off that I have let the goals for my lifestyle slip.. I wanted the life of fitness, of health, of dedication, discipline, of being better than all the other people in the world who look in the bottom of a wine glass, beer glass, pasta dish or McDonalds wrapper for the answer... and yet after years of kinda pitying the types of people I have become like them... maybe not completely but comfort food and wine is an everyday occurrence for me rather than a treat on weekends. Working out is now something I do if I can be bothered not something I do religiously everyday. And guess what.. I feel like crap! I am not sleeping well or sleeping too well (and not being able to get up), my stomach churns constantly from the lack of any kind of good stuff going in, my skin is dry and dull probably due to the lack of hydration.
The winds of change are blowing around me again... watching a few clips of Ali Vincents Live big show and watching the London Marathon have kinda started my mind moving again. I feel like I am powering up after a deep sleep to the knowledge that I still want those things. I have the tools, I know how to get there, I just need to start taking the right steps now..
Sunday, 15 April 2012
A quick round up
This is just a quick blog whilst I am waiting for the sun to come up so I can go for a run.... don't feel safe if the sun isn't up..
So this weekend has been all about the puppy..we collected Eddie on Friday night and spent the weekend getting to know each other. I can't believe how good he is. He seems to be toilet trained...at least he tells us when he needs to go out, if we don't notice he goes on a puppy pad without any prompting! Skye has taken to him pretty well, she was calm and steady with him on friday and saturday, but has begun to notice the quirks in his personality a bit as we have.. like the quirk where he gets frenzied about playfully attacking and chewing something.. usually Matts slipper and PJ bottoms or a cushion, but sometimes when he has been told off for those things he turns his attention to Skye's tail and has bitten her a couple of times, so in these moments she just tries to get away from him!! But this is usually only 15 mins before he settles back down for a sleep again!
It is like having a baby, everything has to be planned around him at the moment, but it has been so much fun!
So this weekend has been all about the puppy..we collected Eddie on Friday night and spent the weekend getting to know each other. I can't believe how good he is. He seems to be toilet trained...at least he tells us when he needs to go out, if we don't notice he goes on a puppy pad without any prompting! Skye has taken to him pretty well, she was calm and steady with him on friday and saturday, but has begun to notice the quirks in his personality a bit as we have.. like the quirk where he gets frenzied about playfully attacking and chewing something.. usually Matts slipper and PJ bottoms or a cushion, but sometimes when he has been told off for those things he turns his attention to Skye's tail and has bitten her a couple of times, so in these moments she just tries to get away from him!! But this is usually only 15 mins before he settles back down for a sleep again!
It is like having a baby, everything has to be planned around him at the moment, but it has been so much fun!
Monday, 9 April 2012
T'was Bank Holiday Monday ...
& we were on a serious puppy hunt. The aim was to bring one back today...
We went to Pontefract and met a little 14 week old DDB, but we felt he was a little too old and the runt of the litter - gorgeous though..
Then straight up the M62 to Tong to meet one of 15 pups born just 7 weeks ago in a huge litter... there he was, this little stocky, strong bundle offluff (nope definitly no fluff) fur (nope they don't have fur really)... a strong bundle of wrinkles!!! We knew straight away that we wanted him....only thing was they brought in his playmate too...'Winnie' she was full or naugty-ness, but was so gorgeous... and it was fate her being called Winnie as it is my Mums middle name and my Great Grandma's family name. I still really want her, but I have to do what's right by Skye.
We went to Pontefract and met a little 14 week old DDB, but we felt he was a little too old and the runt of the litter - gorgeous though..
Then straight up the M62 to Tong to meet one of 15 pups born just 7 weeks ago in a huge litter... there he was, this little stocky, strong bundle of
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| WINNIE |
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| Meet our new addition EDDIE |
Matt thinks it will be too much money and that it will push Skye out....I am sitting right in the middle, it'll only push Skye out if we let it, and the money...well we would pay it out eventually right to get a 2nd one...so might aswell do it whilst we have some profit going into the bank from the house...? I am just not sure about Skye...would it be better to introduce one pup and see how she goes or two and she has a pack and also then she doesn't get introduced to a female later when she is bonded with Eddie which might be harder to do at that stage?
Hmm... only a couple of days to think about it and she might just be sold whilst we are thinking about it...
Anyway, needless to say with the Puppy hunt we haven't got very much other stuff done house-wise or other-wise. I did manage to get my organised head on a bit and prep food and ironed clothes for the week so that is a couple of steps up that ladder!!!
Sunday, 8 April 2012
Puppies!!!!
So this weekend has been a bit all over the place really.... Good Friday - I was on my own, I did chores, met my Mum, made homemade Pizza. Saturday - We lazed around in the morning, played golf in the afternoon. Sunday - we got up with the intention of a little shopping then cleaning cellar out, but we ended up looking at puppies at Dogs R Us, we nearly walked away with Siberian Huskies, Bulmastiffs, Basset Hounds, Cavi King Charles Spaniels and Dogue de bordeaux....
Now I think Monday is going to be spent buying and getting used to a new pup...
No1 - Is it right for Skye..? We can tell she is lonely during the day and because she hasn't a friend. We think if we get a male then she won't try to dominate like she did with Laika, we think she will be more submissive. I am worried that it will bring out the worst in her and she will end up being seen as the 'bad' dog as we kind of saw her before.
What's the worst that could happen...they don't get along and we have to keep seperate...easier to do at new house than here...?
No2 - Is it right for us..? We are moving to a big, prominent house, having a guard dog would be a good thing especially when Matt is working late, we have all the tools we need to look after a large dog like a bulmastiff or dogue de bordeaux. Ok - it would cost on food (horbury for Sneyds..) and pet plan...
Interestingly, neither of these dogs need long walks like dalmations or something like that...
Dunno, Skye has got to be the priority, but without her being able to tell us what she wants how the hell do we know.... she has always had another dog around her... Max was here when we got her, then we he died we had Laika... how can she not be lonely..?
Now I think Monday is going to be spent buying and getting used to a new pup...
No1 - Is it right for Skye..? We can tell she is lonely during the day and because she hasn't a friend. We think if we get a male then she won't try to dominate like she did with Laika, we think she will be more submissive. I am worried that it will bring out the worst in her and she will end up being seen as the 'bad' dog as we kind of saw her before.
What's the worst that could happen...they don't get along and we have to keep seperate...easier to do at new house than here...?
No2 - Is it right for us..? We are moving to a big, prominent house, having a guard dog would be a good thing especially when Matt is working late, we have all the tools we need to look after a large dog like a bulmastiff or dogue de bordeaux. Ok - it would cost on food (horbury for Sneyds..) and pet plan...
Interestingly, neither of these dogs need long walks like dalmations or something like that...
Dunno, Skye has got to be the priority, but without her being able to tell us what she wants how the hell do we know.... she has always had another dog around her... Max was here when we got her, then we he died we had Laika... how can she not be lonely..?
Sunday, 1 April 2012
2nd April - Weighty issues
So the first qtr of the year is over....I am recalling all those plans and promises made in January that haven't really happened yet, but also all of the exciting things that have happened that weren't planned...
:-) It ain't all bad!!
As I sit this morning I am frustrated with myself... I am at the heaviest weight I have been in a few years and I am tipping at becoming damn close to my heaviest ever. I am struggling to get my head into gear...you know.. just back from hols, house stuff going on etc I seem to be enjoying my beer, wine and easy food too much!
My head is also arguing with itself...
you need to count calories so you can make sure cals in are less than cals out vs I don't want to count calories, deprivation can't be the right way I want to eat nutrient dense foods in correct portions not calories.
What's the point of starting a new 'phase' now when we are moving house in a matter of weeks and I will have to create a whole new routine once we have the gym set up in the house vs If I start now I will be 6 weeks into a program and ready to create a new one.
I can't be bothered, I don't care vs I want to be amazing, I want a fit and toned body, I want to be extra-ordinary!
I am slowly coming around to the decisions and I need to think my actions through before I take that step....
just 1 cookie won't hurt - yes it will because it will set off the sugar monster and I will want to eat more
I'll drink coffee today and drink water tomorrow - err duh!
Sod it - I'll get a takeaway tonight - why? all it'll do it hurt your body and bank balance not to mention the fat that you probably won't even enjoy it!!!
So for the next 5 days I promise to:
a) Eat clean, no calorie counting - eat only nutritious, non processed food
b) Stay hydrated by drinking 2 litres minimum of water per day
c) Workout once daily, cardio or weight training
d) Be consistant so I can see results!!!
Hopefully when I see the difference on the scale and inside me I will be inspired to continue!
:-) It ain't all bad!!
As I sit this morning I am frustrated with myself... I am at the heaviest weight I have been in a few years and I am tipping at becoming damn close to my heaviest ever. I am struggling to get my head into gear...you know.. just back from hols, house stuff going on etc I seem to be enjoying my beer, wine and easy food too much!
My head is also arguing with itself...
you need to count calories so you can make sure cals in are less than cals out vs I don't want to count calories, deprivation can't be the right way I want to eat nutrient dense foods in correct portions not calories.
What's the point of starting a new 'phase' now when we are moving house in a matter of weeks and I will have to create a whole new routine once we have the gym set up in the house vs If I start now I will be 6 weeks into a program and ready to create a new one.
I can't be bothered, I don't care vs I want to be amazing, I want a fit and toned body, I want to be extra-ordinary!
I am slowly coming around to the decisions and I need to think my actions through before I take that step....
just 1 cookie won't hurt - yes it will because it will set off the sugar monster and I will want to eat more
I'll drink coffee today and drink water tomorrow - err duh!
Sod it - I'll get a takeaway tonight - why? all it'll do it hurt your body and bank balance not to mention the fat that you probably won't even enjoy it!!!
So for the next 5 days I promise to:
a) Eat clean, no calorie counting - eat only nutritious, non processed food
b) Stay hydrated by drinking 2 litres minimum of water per day
c) Workout once daily, cardio or weight training
d) Be consistant so I can see results!!!
Hopefully when I see the difference on the scale and inside me I will be inspired to continue!
Friday, 16 March 2012
RIP White Bear
So it's the day after one of the hardest days of my life....My little white bear passed away on 15th March.. never to be forgotten!
For us, we found out around midnight in Malaysia we cried and then had a stupid attempt at sleeping which obviously didn't work.
I cannot put into words how gutted I am, but there comes a point when you have to accept that she is gone and there is nothing you can do, even if we had been home there was still nothing we could do...
The tummy issues she had been having that had been investigated by the vet...she was cut open two years ago and they still didn't find what was wrong, we took their advice and did the best we could changing he diet, getting up with her at 2am in the morning to let her out, coming home and cleaning the mess when she had an accident... and my god it was usually a mess (strangely I can have a small smile at that now),but obviously there was more to it than met the eye and then it took her away from us.
I love my material things I do, but I would take memories over items anyday, and Laika has left me with some amazing memories...
As puppy she would love sitting on the windowsill her little floppy ears not yet standing up, she would jump from the chair to Matts arms, she was the cutest little bundle.
We would take them walking and they would get covered in mud, she would just lay in it, she would fly off any pier into water to chase a ball and really she would take off with such momentum that she would seem to fly through the air! She adored her football and her yellow ball when out walking, if you tricked her into thinking it had been thrown she would trot gazelle-like until she was defiinte it had not been thrown.
She was a snuggler, she would snuggle with you on the bed, on the settee, on the floor, she just wanted to be with you most of the time, she would hide her little face under her paw as she snuggled in for a nap! Matt would pull her around to get her from one end of bed to other where she would lay with her head on the pillow whilst he cuddled up to her. She used to sit on 'my settee' sometimes landing so her bum was literally on my lap if the cushions (which she was frightened of) would be spread out more than usual.
For me the biggest thing about Laika was her pretty face and characterful personality, she was a gorgeous looking dog and would pull little faces that made her cuter, her sleepy face made me want to go to sleep instantly!
I can't imagine my life without her, she was such a big part of our little family, but when you have pets this time will always come and not matter how sad you are for your loss you can always know that you did your best for them. Laika lived a happy life she was loved so much, she never wanted for anything, most importantly she knew this.
Laika will now live on in my heart and in my memories.
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For us, we found out around midnight in Malaysia we cried and then had a stupid attempt at sleeping which obviously didn't work.
I cannot put into words how gutted I am, but there comes a point when you have to accept that she is gone and there is nothing you can do, even if we had been home there was still nothing we could do...
The tummy issues she had been having that had been investigated by the vet...she was cut open two years ago and they still didn't find what was wrong, we took their advice and did the best we could changing he diet, getting up with her at 2am in the morning to let her out, coming home and cleaning the mess when she had an accident... and my god it was usually a mess (strangely I can have a small smile at that now),but obviously there was more to it than met the eye and then it took her away from us.
I love my material things I do, but I would take memories over items anyday, and Laika has left me with some amazing memories...
As puppy she would love sitting on the windowsill her little floppy ears not yet standing up, she would jump from the chair to Matts arms, she was the cutest little bundle.
We would take them walking and they would get covered in mud, she would just lay in it, she would fly off any pier into water to chase a ball and really she would take off with such momentum that she would seem to fly through the air! She adored her football and her yellow ball when out walking, if you tricked her into thinking it had been thrown she would trot gazelle-like until she was defiinte it had not been thrown.
She was a snuggler, she would snuggle with you on the bed, on the settee, on the floor, she just wanted to be with you most of the time, she would hide her little face under her paw as she snuggled in for a nap! Matt would pull her around to get her from one end of bed to other where she would lay with her head on the pillow whilst he cuddled up to her. She used to sit on 'my settee' sometimes landing so her bum was literally on my lap if the cushions (which she was frightened of) would be spread out more than usual.
For me the biggest thing about Laika was her pretty face and characterful personality, she was a gorgeous looking dog and would pull little faces that made her cuter, her sleepy face made me want to go to sleep instantly!
I can't imagine my life without her, she was such a big part of our little family, but when you have pets this time will always come and not matter how sad you are for your loss you can always know that you did your best for them. Laika lived a happy life she was loved so much, she never wanted for anything, most importantly she knew this.
Laika will now live on in my heart and in my memories.
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Wednesday, 29 February 2012
Just a thought...
I used to have a really strong idea of the person I wanted to be and it pushed me to carry on, to keep going to the gym, to keep eating well. I had a vision of how my day would evolve and worked hard to get that. I had even written a blog entry that was like a journal of my perfect day. I would say over the last year this image in my mind has faded and I don't put so much emphasis on it anymore... why I don't know? Because it is still important to me, but I have put other things higher up the list. The thing is the things that are higher up shouldn't really be there....I would prefer to eat a takeaway pizza than cook clean and healthy food on a Friday night, I would prefer to drink a bottle of wine with it rather than abstain and be healthier, I would prefer to sit on my ass than do just about anything... I think my role models have gone or at east aren't as vocal about their lives anymore..... the ladies on M&F Hers really used to inspire me.... Creative User Name, Indigo Bunting, Tuff Chick, Lizzy, Brodie, Chouka and everyone else who was regular on the boards over there, but lives move on and most of us are still in touch by facebook, but our discussions are less about the daily battles to become fit amazing women.... so now I am influenced more by the people around me...My hubby (very fit and ripped, but can and will eat what he wants), people at work (who don't get the fitness lifestyle), my family (who think it is sacriledge to not drink loads on a Saturday night) and my parents (they try to be fit and healthy, but are still learning. I am taking on their habits and beliefs and losing my habits and beliefs....
I need to pull this back in and re-focus....
I need to pull this back in and re-focus....
Tuesday, 28 February 2012
29th Feb
Missed another few days...
Quick blog for an update.....
Food, Fitness, FLYing (holiday or otherwise) .. well basically everything is a struggle and not really going to plan!!
House stress is taking over... you think you are getting somewhere and then here comes another kick in the teeth.. It's gonna cost a fotune to move house - it'll be worth it though I'm sure...But right now I am full of doubts over every decision I make - its tough!
In the meantime, holiday is catching me up quickly... 1 week tomorrow and I finish work.. keep getting little flutters of butterflies when I think about it!!
Quick blog for an update.....
Food, Fitness, FLYing (holiday or otherwise) .. well basically everything is a struggle and not really going to plan!!
House stress is taking over... you think you are getting somewhere and then here comes another kick in the teeth.. It's gonna cost a fotune to move house - it'll be worth it though I'm sure...But right now I am full of doubts over every decision I make - its tough!
In the meantime, holiday is catching me up quickly... 1 week tomorrow and I finish work.. keep getting little flutters of butterflies when I think about it!!
Sunday, 26 February 2012
Monday 27th Feb
So I missed a few days there... and don't I know it? Everything went to the dogs.....
Drop cm's
1a - Erm, this went seriously wrong from Tuesday onwards... there was pasta garlice bread, pizza....hmm all the good..erm bad stuff!!! Every day I would try to get back on track... today I will, Ok so today I will... erm todays the day.... well needless to say.. today I will try again!!
1b - Again - this has been hard to do... We hae been stressed (see house goals) and so my required sleep levels have gone through the roof, as have my tummy fat storage hormones probably... so I have managed to get to the gym only a couple of times this last week.
1c - Well if nothing else is going to plan then this isn't going to is it?
Increase the £'s
1a - budget was going ok, with the offer on the house being rejected I stopped being too careful and overspent on food ... takeaways, calling at tesco etc...Then we have redecorated the bathroom £200, then Matt put a nail through a water pipe... another £80
1b - not there yet
Work stuff
Struggling here, too many other things going on - house-wise, but trying to keep my focus on work, but then I haven't got any to do either so it's pretty difficult to keep my head in the game!
FLYing
Ha - wot is it?
Holiday FLYing
erm... no clue about this either!
Home Improvement
6a - Well..... offer accepted at £243k woohoo, looked into several 'quickie' sale people ... all offering a max of £60k for ours... I really want £65k minimum... Doing all we can to make ours attractive to someone and have 2 x valuers out this week... see what they say! Natwest mortgage is pretty much in place, just final underwriting to do after we have signed the papers.
6b - Hopefully not required!
6c - Bathroom almost updated - still to finish.... Valuers here this week.
ME
7a...not doing too great....
I don't know what to say at the moment.... I could almost sit and cry because I am so frustrated about my diet, my fitness, my lack of organisation, my lack of being ready for this holiday... but I can see the bigger picture, this is all for the house, the new lifestyle, the next step on the ladder, but ideally I still want to do it all!!I am going to get to Borneo, not fit into any holiday clothes and be pissed at myself. Half of me just figures that my new life can start in Borneo... I can start to take care of myself and my body and then continue when I get back.. but WTF I feel so confused and pissed at myself this morning!!
So ... what is happening today?
No gym am.... I can still go tonight!!!
No food prep'd...so take easy stuff like CC, get food prep'd today for tomorrow
Clean house before work.... valuer coming
Drink water...this gets rid of loads of sins!!
Drop cm's
1a - Erm, this went seriously wrong from Tuesday onwards... there was pasta garlice bread, pizza....hmm all the good..erm bad stuff!!! Every day I would try to get back on track... today I will, Ok so today I will... erm todays the day.... well needless to say.. today I will try again!!
1b - Again - this has been hard to do... We hae been stressed (see house goals) and so my required sleep levels have gone through the roof, as have my tummy fat storage hormones probably... so I have managed to get to the gym only a couple of times this last week.
1c - Well if nothing else is going to plan then this isn't going to is it?
Increase the £'s
1a - budget was going ok, with the offer on the house being rejected I stopped being too careful and overspent on food ... takeaways, calling at tesco etc...Then we have redecorated the bathroom £200, then Matt put a nail through a water pipe... another £80
1b - not there yet
Work stuff
Struggling here, too many other things going on - house-wise, but trying to keep my focus on work, but then I haven't got any to do either so it's pretty difficult to keep my head in the game!
FLYing
Ha - wot is it?
Holiday FLYing
erm... no clue about this either!
Home Improvement
6a - Well..... offer accepted at £243k woohoo, looked into several 'quickie' sale people ... all offering a max of £60k for ours... I really want £65k minimum... Doing all we can to make ours attractive to someone and have 2 x valuers out this week... see what they say! Natwest mortgage is pretty much in place, just final underwriting to do after we have signed the papers.
6b - Hopefully not required!
6c - Bathroom almost updated - still to finish.... Valuers here this week.
ME
7a...not doing too great....
I don't know what to say at the moment.... I could almost sit and cry because I am so frustrated about my diet, my fitness, my lack of organisation, my lack of being ready for this holiday... but I can see the bigger picture, this is all for the house, the new lifestyle, the next step on the ladder, but ideally I still want to do it all!!I am going to get to Borneo, not fit into any holiday clothes and be pissed at myself. Half of me just figures that my new life can start in Borneo... I can start to take care of myself and my body and then continue when I get back.. but WTF I feel so confused and pissed at myself this morning!!
So ... what is happening today?
No gym am.... I can still go tonight!!!
No food prep'd...so take easy stuff like CC, get food prep'd today for tomorrow
Clean house before work.... valuer coming
Drink water...this gets rid of loads of sins!!
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