Where was I again...

Since coming home from Malaysia my life has been chaotic and I haven't really got myself on track, then to make things worse we bought Eddie and life became even more chaotic. I know we will be moving within the next month and feel like life is on hold until then because I know I will have a new life very soon.

The week with Eddie has been a tough one... for all the 30mins of joy and fun he gives we have another of stress and frustration. He has now decided he doesn't like using the garden to toilet and much prefers the carpets and doggie towels that we have on the floor! He's an obstinate little beggar!! But he has got used to going in his cage during the day - this makes for a mad 30 mins when he gets out though...:-) He is getting along with Skye really well, mind you she tells him when she needs to! At the moment if I was to set my alarm for toilet breaks (which I haven't been doing - but that may change tomorrow) then I would say he needs to get up at 11.30pm then 4am. I am figuring that if I do this and then start to delay the alarms by a couple of mins here and there that he will get more used to getting through the night. Don't get me wrong - he is a joy!

I am getting more and more frustrated with the health and fitness part of my life... when did I forget all of my goals and aims for my life. I am currently weighing in at 161lbs which is 25 to 30lbs over where I want to be. Now I am not saying that I am not pissed off about this - I am, but I am more pissed off that I have let the goals for my lifestyle slip.. I wanted the life of fitness, of health, of dedication, discipline, of being better than all the other people in the world who look in the bottom of a wine glass, beer glass, pasta dish or McDonalds wrapper for the answer... and yet after years of kinda pitying the types of people I have become like them... maybe not completely but comfort food and wine is an everyday occurrence for me rather than a treat on weekends. Working out is now something I do if I can be bothered not something I do religiously everyday.    And guess what.. I feel like crap! I am not sleeping well or sleeping too well (and not being able to get up), my stomach churns constantly from the lack of any kind of good stuff going in, my skin is dry and dull probably due to the lack of hydration.

The winds of change are blowing around me again... watching a few clips of Ali Vincents Live big show and watching the London Marathon have kinda started my mind moving again. I feel like I am powering up after a deep sleep to the knowledge that I still want those things. I have the tools, I know how to get there, I just need to start taking the right steps now..

A quick round up

This is just a quick blog whilst I am waiting for the sun to come up so I can go for a run.... don't feel safe if the sun isn't up..

So this weekend has been all about the puppy..we collected Eddie on Friday night and spent the weekend getting to know each other. I can't believe how good he is. He seems to be toilet trained...at least he tells us when he needs to go out, if we don't notice he goes on a puppy pad without any prompting! Skye has taken to him pretty well, she was calm and steady with him on friday and saturday, but has begun to notice the quirks in his personality a bit as we have.. like the quirk where he gets frenzied about playfully attacking and chewing something.. usually Matts slipper and PJ bottoms or a cushion, but sometimes when he has been told off for those things he turns his attention to Skye's tail and has bitten her a couple of times, so in these moments she just tries to get away from him!! But this is usually only 15 mins before he settles back down for a sleep again!

It is like having a baby, everything has to be planned around him at the moment, but it has been so much fun!

T'was Bank Holiday Monday ...

& we were on a serious puppy hunt. The aim was to bring one back today...

We went to Pontefract and met a little 14 week old DDB, but we felt he was a little too old and the runt of the litter - gorgeous though..

Then straight up the M62 to Tong to meet one of 15 pups born just 7 weeks ago in a huge litter... there he was, this little stocky, strong bundle of fluff (nope definitly no fluff) fur (nope they don't have fur really)... a strong bundle of wrinkles!!! We knew straight away that we wanted him....only thing was they brought in his playmate too...'Winnie' she was full or naugty-ness, but was so gorgeous... and it was fate her being called Winnie as it is my Mums middle name and my Great Grandma's family name. I still really want her, but I have to do what's right by Skye.

 WINNIE

Meet our new addition EDDIE

Matt thinks it will be too much money and that it will push Skye out....I am sitting right in the middle, it'll only push Skye out if we let it, and the money...well we would pay it out eventually right to get a 2nd one...so might aswell do it whilst we have some profit going into the bank from the house...? I am just not sure about Skye...would it be better to introduce one pup and see how she goes or two and she has a pack and also then she doesn't get introduced to a female later when she is bonded with Eddie which might be harder to do at that stage?

Hmm... only a couple of days to think about it and she might just be sold whilst we are thinking about it...

Anyway, needless to say with the Puppy hunt we haven't got very much other stuff done house-wise or other-wise. I did manage to get my organised head on a bit and prep food and ironed clothes for the week so that is a couple of steps up that ladder!!!

Puppies!!!!

So this weekend has been a bit all over the place really.... Good Friday - I was on my own, I did chores, met my Mum, made homemade Pizza. Saturday - We lazed around in the morning, played golf in the afternoon. Sunday - we got up with the intention of a little shopping then cleaning cellar out, but we ended up looking at puppies at Dogs R Us, we nearly walked away with Siberian Huskies, Bulmastiffs, Basset Hounds, Cavi King Charles Spaniels and Dogue de bordeaux....
Now I think Monday is going to be spent buying and getting used to a new pup...

No1 - Is it right for Skye..? We can tell she is lonely during the day and because she hasn't a friend. We think if we get a male then she won't try to dominate like she did with Laika, we think she will be more submissive. I am worried that it will bring out the worst in her and she will end up being seen as the 'bad' dog as we kind of saw her before.
What's the worst that could happen...they don't get along and we have to keep seperate...easier to do at new house than here...?

No2 - Is it right for us..? We are moving to a big, prominent house, having a guard dog would be a good thing especially when Matt is working late, we have all the tools we need to look after a large dog like a bulmastiff or dogue de bordeaux. Ok - it would cost on food (horbury for Sneyds..) and pet plan...
Interestingly, neither of these dogs need long walks like dalmations or something like that...

Dunno, Skye has got to be the priority, but without her being able to tell us what she wants how the hell do we know.... she has always had another dog around her... Max was here when we got her, then we he died we had Laika... how can she not be lonely..?

2nd April - Weighty issues

So the first qtr of the year is over....I am recalling all those plans and promises made in January that haven't really happened yet, but also all of the exciting things that have happened that weren't planned...
:-)  It ain't all bad!!

As I sit this morning I am frustrated with myself... I am at the heaviest weight I have been in a few years and I am tipping at becoming damn close to my heaviest ever. I am struggling to get my head into gear...you know.. just back from hols, house stuff going on etc I seem to be enjoying my beer, wine and easy food too much!

My head is also arguing with itself...
you need to count calories so you can make sure cals in are less than cals out vs I don't want to count calories, deprivation can't be the right way I want to eat nutrient dense foods in correct portions not calories.
What's the point of starting a new 'phase' now when we are moving house in a matter of weeks and I will have to create a whole new routine once we have the gym set up in the house vs If I start now I will be 6 weeks into a program and ready to create a new one.
I can't be bothered, I don't care vs I want to be amazing, I want a fit and toned body, I want to be extra-ordinary!

I am slowly coming around to the decisions and I need to think my actions through before I take that step....
just 1 cookie won't hurt - yes it will because it will set off the sugar monster and I will want to eat more
I'll drink coffee today and drink water tomorrow - err duh!
Sod it - I'll get a takeaway tonight - why? all it'll do it hurt your body and bank balance not to mention the fat that you probably won't even enjoy it!!!

So for the next 5 days I promise to:
a) Eat clean, no calorie counting - eat only nutritious, non processed food
b) Stay hydrated by drinking 2 litres minimum of water per day
c) Workout once daily, cardio or weight training
d) Be consistant so I can see results!!!

Hopefully when I see the difference on the scale and inside me I will be inspired to continue!